Better off alone!

Each morning, whenever i wake up i wish that am not back to reality and that it is over. I am the kind of person, that don't admit my mistakes easily, at least infront of anyone though i work on it but i never admit it. Now i am cornered with the ugly truth that i am not myself, i don't have any confidence in myself, I don't trust myself around people anymore,the people I care about fleed away with their lives & I don't blame them...why would I, I screwed them up in bad times, i hardly bare myself...I even hate taking pictures of myself lately. I am afraid of doing any act or saying any word that might come back at me for the worse...I don't need help from others, i just want my bad ass self back & left alone...no one cares about me...and I actually need to be back as an ICE queen...I didn't add up positively to people surrounding me when I cared. I am better working all the time, totally focused in this world, that's definetly the only thing am good at right now and the only reason of my living each day apparently...maybe am doing a good impact, who knows we will see!

I will stop writing, I don't want to turn the world darker for whoever by chance care to read my stuff. Also, in case the wrong people read them, and they think they got me all figured out & play the judge or think they are smart...kindly be noted my writings are only for me, to keep myself company but it turned out is not working for me anymore. Plus it is not intended for anyone & I don't care what anyone think anymore... Cause am better off alone.